I spent this last weeks in my dreams

On this pillow I couldn't cry

Looking for sleep when the sun beams

If I don't rest I wanna die

 

Lemme get right back in my mind

This is the only place I reach

I knew in there I could still find

Enough courage to be at peace

 

Lemme be your filthy coward

I did my best with what I had

And I don't care looking awkward

I'd never been feeling so bad

 

I used my nights to empty me

Tear after tear they got me dry

In the morning, feeling filthy

In my own sweat I couldn't cry

 

Every sunrise was like a hell

And every moon got me relieved

And for so long I couldn't tell

Which one of us was more deceived

 

I was harmless and powerful 

Drooling alone in my own sheets

Reaching for help to my own soul

As in my world, we couldn't fit

 

I lived so long fighting alone

Exhausted to not be awake

And as the time was going on

The lack of life just left me drained

 

Cause I cherish my memories

And I treasure what I have loved 

And will do so for centuries

But my journey cannot be sold